.::A Fangirl's Thoughts::.

So, updates on my life.

I'm graduating tomorrow. Not quite sure how I feel about this. I finished the last of my schoolwork today, I passed all of my finals, summer's here, I'm free, I've already gotten a lot of money in graduation presents, I get to see my friends and boyfriend tonight...so why do I feel so depressed? It's not fear of the future anymore. I'm actually getting a little excited for it. I just...feel sad, for some reason. I guess part of it might be that going to miss my youth group. I...never thought it would affect me that much, haha. I mean, for a long time, youth group was more of an annoyance than anything. But in the past year or two, I've really started to enjoy it and make some friends.

It saddens me that that's going to end soon.

Of course, I know I won't lose my friends just because I don't see them every Thursday night anymore, but it's so hard, because I live at least 30 minutes away from most of them, so I hardly ever get to see them.

Especially my boyfriend. It's hard enough seeing him only twice a week - imagine when that drops to once. :/ Man. I need to make some friends who live near me to keep me occupied. ><

On a plus side, I guess it'll be a new adventure going to college group. And my boyfriend and one of my best friends (Katie~) are graduating as well, so I won't be going it alone. And who knows? I might know some other people in the college group. And there's always the college pastor, who used to be the HS pastor.

But it's still a little scary.

I'm gonna really miss high school.

And I never thought I'd say those words.

In any case, weird melancholy aside, today has been a good day. Like I said, I got a lot of money in graduation gifts, and that was just from family sending it in the mail, haha. xD; I feel sort of embarrassed, like I should be happier or something, since they're giving me gifts; I feel like this graduating thing should be a celebration, and I'm somehow being ungrateful by feeling sad about it. You know what I mean? I dunno. I'm trying to enjoy it, really.

Doesn't help that my mom completely shot down my plans for a KabuKitty graduation cake. I really wanted that cake.

But! I have a fun outfit for graduation - I love long peasant skirts~ And Lukers will be there! And (hopefully) baka-niisama. <33

Anyway, still trying to raise money for camp. Prints anyone? :'D I finally figured out the pricing for international orders - I'll just add two dollars to the price, to cover the extra shipping. I think that ought to be enough to cover most places. C:

Oh! Really enjoyed the American Idol finale last night, even if I disagreed with America on who should've won. :/ I'm not too upset, though; I knew it would be close. And I forgot to vote for Adam, so I don't really have any right to talk. xD;; The performances last night were a lot of fun, though, and Kris did wonderfully on that (retarded) "No Boundaries" song. It was actually, shockingly, good. Not that I doubt Kris' abilities, but that song is just... xD;; idk. It makes me feel cynical.

I hope both of them go on to make records, cuz I bet I will freaking love them. <3 Especially if Adam's "Mad World" rendition is on there. C:< SO GOOOOOOOD.

In other news - it turns out I won't be selling art anywhere this summer. SuperCon fell through, as did SacCon, and SacAnime's full, so...there you go. xD Guess it just wasn't meant to be. Maybe if I find someone with a SacAnime table who can share I'll do it, but I'm not looking too hard, honestly. I figure, at this point, God either really doesn't want me to do it, or He'll find a way to work it out. ;] Either way, I still plan to go to SacAnime - if nothing else, to see ~BlackSandPiper and maybe do some Brawl. <3 I want to do Doubles again! xD Ironically, though, my prospective partner this time around is practically a reincarnation of my partner from the first time I did it. Seriously. I'd be scared if Andy and Derek ever met. xD Way too much arrogant nerd for one room. Luckily, though, I've actually /played/ with Andy before. I think his Zelda/Shiek duo would compliment my Marth well. xD But we'll see. idk if he still wants to do it...

So yeah! That's my life, in a nutshell. Been reading and roleplaying a lot, lately. Trying to do more CGing, too. I want to try and draw a lot this summer. C:

Oh! By the way, for all of you D&D nerds out there - got any advice for a halfelven cleric with a lawful evil alignment in a party of mostly good characters? xD;; Haha...ha. (Luckily, I think we're getting some evil characters, though. <3 C'mon Andy, Mickey, you know you want to join the dark side~ C:<

.::The Usual Junk::.
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August 29-30: SacAnime

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